Inside Edition journalist Lisa Guerrero is opening up about a few of her darkest days whereas being a sideline reporter for Monday Night Football within the early 2000s.
In her new memoir, Warrior: My Path to Being Brave, out Jan. 24, Guerrero, 58, will get candid concerning the sexism and mistreatment she endured as a feminine reporter in sports activities. She additionally writes about suffering a miscarriage on live TV whereas reporting throughout a sport.
Guerrero, who was let go from Monday Night Football after the 2003 season, defined to People that the miscarriage was the fruits of incessant bullying by the hands of her boss, govt producer Freddie Gaudelli, and others, who routinely criticized her garments, posture and script-writing.
“People who knew what was going on with [my boss] Freddie and who learn how I used to be being handled within the media already checked out me with such pity,” Guerrero, who stored the key for 20 years, recalled. “I used to be a shell of myself. And I felt such disgrace and embarrassment that the very last thing I used to be going to say is, ‘Oh, and by the best way, I simply had a miscarriage.'”
In the e book, Guerrero writes that regardless of Monday Night Football’s spike in scores together with her on the sidelines — and an invite from President George W. Bush to host a White House reception for Hispanic Heritage Month — she was nonetheless remoted from her friends.
“Freddie’s criticisms obliterated all others [facets] of my life — a nice job, plenty of cash, and a beautiful fiancé [MLB pitcher Scott Erickson],” she writes within the e book, per People. “But I used to be considering, Who decides to get married after they’re additionally contemplating killing themselves? That was how dangerous I felt.”
Guerrero explains that she hasn’t had a interval since beginning the job, chalking it as much as stress. That is, till a dwelling being pregnant check proves in any other case.
Guerrero’s fantasies of beginning a household got here to a standstill throughout a live phase, when she says she felt an “intensifying ache” in her stomach.
“I pushed by means of and did my reviews. When I felt a dampness between my legs, I assumed, ‘Oh, I received my interval.’ And then I remembered I used to be pregnant. I used to be having a miscarriage!” she writes. “I may really feel blood leaking. The officers’ rest room was within the tunnel behind me. ‘I’m going to the lavatory,’ I instructed my assistant, whose job was to race across the area with me. He checked out me as if I used to be insane. ‘They’re about to throw to you.'”
Guerrero ended up giving her live report, though she felt “dizzy” and “nauseated” the complete time.
“The ache was excruciating,” she writes. “I heard myself mispronounce a participant’s identify and knew I’d hear about it later [from Gaudelli]. As quickly as I completed, I raced off to interview a coach. Then I headed to the lavatory. As I sat on the bathroom, I could not imagine the blood pouring out of me. It had soaked by means of my pants. I shoved a bunch of paper towels in my underwear.”
“It by no means occurred to me to inform anybody,” she continues. “It by no means occurred to me that perhaps I ought to have gone to a hospital or, on the very least, sat out the remainder of the sport. The solely thought that crossed my thoughts was that I may get by means of the remainder of the sport so long as I buttoned up my lengthy winter coat. That manner, nobody would see the blood. It was as if I have been on autopilot. Get again on the sideline. Interview the coach. Listen to Freddie’s instructions.”
When the sport ended, Guerrero wrote that she was supposed to talk with Gaudelli. Instead, she headed straight to a airplane, the place she “modified garments, and dumped my underwear and pants within the rubbish can.”
In hindsight, Guerrero tells Peopleshe does not “blame one individual for this.”
“The miscarriage wasn’t due to Freddie, and it wasn’t due to one radio speak present host or one dangerous column,” she mentioned. “It was a fruits of the complete season of negativity and cruelty. It was actually merciless.”
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